Levi and I are back home after our honeymoon. We had a real nice time together…I’m sad it’s over but I’m happy to be home. I go back to work Monday and I’m not really looking forward to that…but I gotta make the monies.
Yesterday I learned some disheartening things. I was researching when to test for pregnancy if you don’t have regular menstrual cycles. I was talking to some women on a message board and they made me realize something is most likely up with my reproductive system because I haven’t had a period in 4 months. I felt kinda stupid thinking nothing was wrong…but I thought I was still ovulating because I was getting “fertile” cervical mucus every month. I guess you can still get that CM without ovulation…and I know no ovulation = no pregnancy. 😦 I called my OBGYN and talked to the nurse…it’s possible I have Polycystic ovary syndrome. I have an appointment the 28th of this month and I’ll know more then but basically what I know now is it’s probably going to be harder for me to get pregnant than I expected.
It’s frustrating because I’ll go back and forth in my head; “I’m ready to be pregnant, I can do this, I’ll only feel sick for a few weeks, I might not feel sick at all”
“There’s no way I can go through with this, I’m going to feel sick and be vomiting consonantly until I give birth”
I feel like the only way I’m going to be able to do this is JUST DO IT and deal with each day one at a time…throwing in this possibility of difficulty just getting pregnant throws a wrench into everything. *sigh*…my stomach hurts.
I just need to not get discouraged…I’m still going to take this one step at a time and deal with each hurdle one at a time…whether it be some problems getting pregnant or waking up one morning feeling nauseated.
…one step at a time…